Chaos

“Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth.” ~ Tom Barrett

Tonight, I sit with my books and laptop feeling quite overwhelmed with life.  I feel like I am in the midst of chaos.  I am currently taking three classes, 8 grad. credits. I am working my weekends, teaching childbirth education once a week, and teaching clinical nursing two days a week. Add to that the responsibilities of a family and it is pretty easy to understand how I am overhelmed. Not complaining or asking for pity. Just purging some feelings. 

As I try to bring life back into order, I realize that it seems like an uphill battle.  Don't get me wrong, I do not regret any choices I have made to create my world.  I am just a bit uneasy dealing with everything all at one time.  I know that in the end, I will be stronger and wiser... and that makes me push on.

Tomorrow I will awake and try to make some sense out of what I need to accomplish. I might need a bigger calendar! LOL

The Road Not Taken

As one goes through life, many opportunities arise. As we are presented with these opportunities, we are often forced to make a choice as to which path we choose to travel. We may not know where we are headed or if we have chosen the right path.  But sometimes we just have to take a leap of faith and travel down the unknown path to get to our destination.

Consider this poem by Robert Frost.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim

Because it was grassy and wanted wear,

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 

Taking the easy route is not always the right decision.  By traveling the road less traveled, we can pave our way through our lives and become a stronger individual for having done so.

I cannot possibly tell you how many times I have been asked " How do you manage to do all you do?"  The answer?  I don't know.  But I do know that if I want something badly enough in my life, I will work hard to achieve it.  It certainly is not an easy life for me right now, but I make it work.

Today begins my fourth term of graduate school.  This section of road is looking a little daunting at the moment.  Two courses are focusing on midwifery care; antepartum, postpartum and newborn care. The other classfocuses on community health.  I am anticipating some bumps in the road, but I will arrive at the next rest stop as scheduled in the middle of June.  I am excited for this journey as much as I am anxious that the classes will be wrought with difficulty.  But nonetheless, off I go.....